thirtytwo

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive your car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick --
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh --
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way
I don't hate you --
Not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.

~Kat Startford (10 Things I Hate About You)

how come there are some people that you just cant hate..they've let you down, they've disappointed you, they've hurt you, they've made you cry, they've ruined your life (that's probably too harsh)...but you just cant hate them...not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.

i try to be a devoted catholic as much as i can...going to mass every sundays, praying the rosary, station of the cross, lighting candles, attending novenas..but i had to admit there were times when i fell asleep during long sermons, i gave in to the tempatation of chatting with friends during mass

but inspite of every fault, and every mistake, God has been really good to me, he has given me so much...and i cant help but be humble about it.

and as i go through life...every ash wednesday i will always be reminded that " from ash i came and to ash i shall return"

ive been asked a thousand times "leah are you chinese?" and a thousand times i would smile and say no.

you see i have this theory that in my past life, i was probably chinese....its sounds really weird but chinese stuff facinates me, language, culture...people...

and today on the eve of the chinese new year...i'm doing some weird stuff in the name of chinese luck.....you know stuff like...writting all your wishes on a white paper and burning them at midnight...or puting money on red envelopes and hanging them on the ceiling...im driving my sister nuts, giving her instructions on what she should do....

i need all the luck i can get this comming new year...and i guess, it doesnt hurt to try....yeah..why not?

gong he xin xi!

8 days from today I’ll be turning 32. is this good or bad?

After 17 years of school, 12 years of working nonstop , 5 failed relationships in a span of 17 years…is there anything else for me to look forward to in the next 20, 30 or 40 years of my life?

Honestly …I don’t know, but im excited to find out!